The bright eyed Saphira looked up. It had been three years since she had seen Sammy, but every rustle made her think of her last meeting with him, his chocolate brown eyes flicking desperately from left to right looking for someone, or something, Saphira didnt know what.
"I have to go away for a while," he had whispered to her. "I promise you I'll try and make it back and I'll try and find you. I'll never forget you"
She tucked her curly black hair behind her ear and went back to reading her book. When would Sammy come back to her? She hadn't lost hope, despite her friends and family trying to convince her otherwise. She was sat under her
You say that you are the one
well im not so sure
you say that you won't harm me
again i dunno
you say that nothing will break us
how can you be so sure
you dont know me
i dont know you
yet here we are in this intricate tango once more
we dance around with ease
i follow your lead
although you dont know the way to go
in my heart i know that you are right
i don't always know whats going on
but one thing i do know
you will be there regardless
whether i want you to or not
im not so sure what i would do without you
yet i have no idea what to do with you either
slowly screaming
releasing anger
releasing fear
then the tears come
gushing out
releasing pain
relieving anguish
slowly you realise
you arent alone
they are watching you
judging you
keeping you back
holding you down
so you start to retreat
into yourself
withdrawing from
the pain
the anger
the fear
bringing back the anguish you felt
you start to build a wall
but it cant protect you
you still feel it
you still want to cry
you hide it from people
to stop them thinking
you are weak
pathetic
you cant cope
when deep down you know they are right
you cant cope
with the pain
the frustration
the failure
slowly the fee
holding you
i look in to your eyes
and see love and hope
bringing you closer to me
kissing your beautiful lips
watching your gorgeous eyes
rubbinng your back
feeling you beneath your clothes
your muscles ripple
kissing your strong neck
i love you with all my heart
your smile is a doorway to happiness
your kiss is a sommersault in ecstasy
your eyes a gateway to love
holding you i wish i never had to let you go
i love you
swelling
a great lump
just south of the heart
and north of the stomach
consuming all
body squirming all over
tryiing to get out
wishing you could disappear
waiting for you to say more
making you more embarassed
the swellingi increases
making you wish you were gone
your cheeks have coloured
your palms are sweaty
you wish you werent there
you wish you hadnt said anything
you feel worthless
until it takes you over
an you dwell on it
swelling larger and larger until it takes you over
Why
does everything with you
involve a fight?
Why
do you claim you love me
when you dont act like it?
Why
are you so keen
on keeping me downtrodden?
Why
do i have to act like your slave
yet you get annoyed if i ask you to do the same?
Why
did you have me
when you are turning me into you
why?
when you dont like
who you are
Why, Dad, Why?
I know you care
but sometimes i really wonder
I love you regardless
you say you feel insecure
but i dont understand why
i'm here for the long run
you push me away
when i want to take you close
you say you dont want to take the next step
i'll be here when you are ready
you say i know you better than you know yourself
yet you are still an enigma to me
why cant you see
that im feeling round in the dark trying to understand you
I love you regardless
i dont mean to make you feel upset
i dont mean to shut you out of my problems
i just dont want to add to yours
i love you regardless
you are my everything
i love you
but it scares me
i know you think we will be together forever
but i still feel unsure
you think i'm something i'm not
pretty, funny and happy
i know the real me
ugly mean and low
you hold me in your arms
saying we will be together forever
but i sit there wondering what will happen
you want us to take the next step
when im not sure if we should have taken the last one
you support me no matter what
yet you wont let me help you
you think you know me
how can you when i dont know myself?
I love you with all my heart
i never want to let you go
but sometimes i feel you are encouraging my problems
so you dont have to